For the most part, if many were willing to be honest with themselves, they do not really want God (peace) they want their illusions to change, they want their finances to grow, they want their relationships to improve, they want their religion to be the right one, they want the Urtex to be better than the second version of A Course in Miracles, they want their business to prosper, they want the world to change, they want the whales to be saved, they want to end world hunger, they want the government to change, and you can fill in the blank with anything else I might have missed, not realizing that all of those wants keeps them at the effect of illusions, leading them to a more darker path. And that's understandable since undoing the ego is not a bed of roses. As long as people identify themselves with this false sense of self, it is very difficult to let go of attachments, especially since the emotions seem to dictate their behavior.

When I feel pain, whether it be emotional, physical or psychological, or whether I find myself experiencing some kind of lack in any way, just like most, I would want the pain or the lack to go away, not realizing that that is a trap the ego employs to make myself believe that I am a body and that my source comes from the world. Please be careful here to ensure I am not being misunderstood. It is not that I have to face pain in order to reach God. As a matter of fact, that is the crucifixion we put ourselves through because of our body identification and attachments to the world.

However, when we choose peace, when we want God, without allowing distractions, (our judgment) to get in the way, ¿what is left? Peace! And from that place of peace, (when obstacles are being removed) what surface is love! And the paradox is that from that place of love, although nothing really has to change in form because we are no longer at the effect of illusions, what usually seem to happen is that our relationships improve, our finances change, our health is restored, the world reflect back at us the love what we are, etc., etc., etc., and  the Urtex and A Course in Miracles are put back on the shelfs or given away, realizing that there is no need to compare, or to study them, or to even read them again, for their purpose has been accomplished. 

"Forget this world, forget this course, and  come with wholly empty hands unto your God." W-pI.189.7:5

Those who know me personally, and many who have read my book in some way have witnessed some of the challenges I have been experiencing in the last two to three years. And as I continue simply putting one foot in front of the other, in spite of what my circumstances may look like, I have been able to continue to see the perfection in each and everyone of my experiences. And all of them has taught me one thing, and one thing only. Forgive! Because that is why they have been projected. Not to be changed or to be judged, but to forgive them so that more obstacles can be removed. 

Interestingly enough, another big lesson I have learned, is that my darkest moments forced me to love deeper! Because in each and every moment, we always have two choices, to look at our experiences from the frame work of fear, which is what projected the experience in the first place, or to look at it with the Holy Spirit, from a place of love, so that they can be transformed. I did not say changed, I said transformed, because the transformation happens in the mind, not in form. Change happens in form, but transformation is what happens when we begin to look at everything differently.

Change creates temporary pleasure, while transformation leads to a happy dream. Although nothing in the world of form has to change, however, paradoxically, as I mentioned before, our "seeming" wants manifest easily and effortless. This time however, not to be used as tools for ego aggrandizement, but as vehicles of communication in order to help restore the sonship back  to oneness! (our mind back to its original state).

I have gone through massive attacks, major judgments, bankruptcy, interestingly enough, all that I needed in order to do the work I feel called to do, which is to continue trusting the Holy Spirit and to deepen my relationship with God, have been provided for me, and to this day, as I look back, I cannot possible see how all the synchronicities that took place in my life that allowed me to have this experience have happened.

So whether some suggest that I am doing it right or doing it wrong, what I could  offer you is, whatever it is that you are doing, as long as you are willing to put the Holy Spirit in front of every single one of your "seeming" decisions, is the right decision for you, in spite of what anybody thinks.

I do not consider myself to be an enlightened person, however, I feel that I am clear about what the Course is asking me to do, which is to choose again, and again, and again... Simple? Yes! Easy? Well, it all depends on how much longer do I want to continue to suffer. ;o)

And by the way, one of the judgments I have received is, "if you were a real Course in Miracles teacher, why are you writing articles and writing a book instead of just having a regular life and do what most people do?" The answer is, because I don't question what I feel inspired to do. And this is something I feel moved to do so I am trusting. If it brings me peace, and joy, and as long as I am not interfering with anyone else's path, I trust! Had it not been for Gary Renard's books, Nouk Sanchez and Tomas Vieira's book, Ken Wapnick teachings, and teachers who were not afraid to make themselves available to teach, even while many may still be dealing with their own ego stuff, I would not have benefitted from their gift of sharing the teachings that have made an impact in their lives, and consequently, have also made an impact in mine.

And yes, like in everything, there are spiritual teachers, and spiritualized egos. However, as long as I feel that I am in the right space, even when sometimes I may not be, but just my willingness to be, I trust that others may benefit from what I have to share, because my piece of the puzzle is as important and as valuable as yours!

"So keep on trucking!", as they say in the South. Write your book, do your workshops, speak, just share your light in whichever form you may be guided to, Just do it, even if your ego is HUGE! Because we teach best what we have to learn most! And the way or vehicle through which you may be guided to share light may have nothing to do with writing a book or speaking or doing any of those things. While I am not writing or speaking, to the best of my abilities, I practice sharing my light when feeding or walking the dogs; when doing the dishes; when talking to a friend, in other words, when doing whatever it is I am doing in each and every moment.

Because it is not what you are doing, it is what you are being when doing what you are doing. ¿Are you choosing to be love? ¿Or are you choosing to be fearful? In other words, ¿are you choosing the Holy Spirit? ¿Or are you choosing the ego? And if you forget who you are, I hope I am able to help you remember, because many times I do forget, and still do, more times than you may think, however, when I do, there are those who help me remember, people like you!

Thank you for reading this little note! And if another note or article comes through, there is one thing for me to do, which is to put it out there, and let it go!

I love you!